Its been 3 months since i gave birth to the most beautiful girl ever. it seem like everything been going good or should i say great. I finally have that real family i’ve always dreamed about. My daughters father and I are finally back together and for some reason its been feeling like a fairytale relationship. A relationship i desire until eternity but you know what they say “good things dont last forever”. He sure makes that statement seem false because lately even though i been working my self out when it comes down to being with him life just seem better.
Its crazy how before you didnt have that person your madly in love with in your life you was living happily. When they’re gone you feel like you cant live without that person and their just your everything. I can say thats how feel….
If happy ever after really did exist..”hmm……..”
Sometimes I feel like the whole world is on my back. As much as I may smile and say everything is okay it does get hard being a single mother. I may feel like I’m by myself all the time but I guess I have to stay strong. I don’t have to, I can say I am strong. My daughter keeps me going everyday. Even though times may get rough and I may want to cry I always count blessings. Being a single teen mom its always best to stay optimistic about things. If it wasn’t for her I don’t know what I would do!
I took my daughter to get her ears pierce today. Thinking that she was going to cry but she took it in real good.
My daughter always has the hickups. Its been the most annoying thing ever since she’s been born! Most people say they mean your infants growing but i found a solution. I tried water but it didnt quite work and giving them something to suck on takes a while to stop them. So I had my daughter drink the formula milk. The formula milk instantly got rid of those annoying hickups thats been bothering the both of us.
Today my daughter and I went to church. Everyone was excited to see her and the topic was how much she looks like her father. All I can thank of was how much god has blessed me with a beautiful daughter. If I can take back anything from the pass I wouldn’t. I mean everything happens for a reason, right!?
Today I had a wonderful day hanging with my mother in law/ grandma to my daughter. She enjoys being with her first grandchild. What really kills me is how my daughter never cries when she with her grandma’s but with me its a different story. What can I say I love my baby though!
Ever been shitted on by someone? When a person does it, its okay but when a bird does, it is completely different. Today was the first time ever in my life i had a bird take a shit on me. The bowel movement was not just hot but disgusting. I was very disturbed and freaked out i didnt know how to react. I just wanted to kill that bird!
Early Friday morning i can say around 6 a.m, maybe a little bit after i got up to go use the restroom when i unexpectedly felt water dripping down my leg. I instantly knew my water have broken. Not knowing how to react to the situation I quickly called an ambulance. I was nervous but ready to see my child. Being in labor for 9 hours felt like forever. I started to get sick, my blood pressure was rising, and my contractions were becoming stronger and painful. Some say delivering is the worst feeling ever. I personally would do it again but one is already enough.
After dilating 3 cm I got an epidural, the best feeling in the world. It was now around 1p.m going on 2p.m and I was dilating quickly. Due to the feeling you get in your rectum area, I could feel my baby coming down. I knew i was ready to push and welcome my baby to the world. I fleetly called the nurses and my doctor into the room to let them know i was ready. It only took 30 minutes but it felt like 10 minutes to push my baby girl out. Delivering was the most painless experience. At 2:07 i gave birth to a baby girl name Olivia A. V.,
the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen.
I was only 2 weeks away. Swollen ankles, backaches, and I still manage to get it done. For those that said I couldn’t do it, well I did it. Just cause your young and pregnant never say you can’t, because you could. People may underestimate you but there is no excuse why it couldn’t have gotten done. I had something to prove!